How.

You don't know what love is. You don't. You're a teenager, most of your musings are affected by a surfeit of hormones and a paucity of the cognitive controls needed for mature behaviour. You don't think that love, real love, can exist at such a tender age. Hell, you're not even sure if love exists at all.

But how can you think that?

If love does not exist, then what is it that drives a person to sacrifice? What forms friendships and binds trust? We were not forced to care for others. We were not forced to compensate, to compromise. Allowing your own shortcomings for the sake of others? What could possibly drive you to such a stupid decision?

Love.

You're selfish. You are. It's in your bones, it's in your blood. "If you don't ask for what you want, you'll never get it." But perhaps it's you who wants too much. Perhaps it's you who asks for too much. What do you know? What do you want?

Tell me what you want.

I want love with a guarantee. I want a 10 year warranty card to come along with it, "LOVE & CO. warrants this card holder to be free from any defects in material  under normal use for a period of  (∞) years from date of attachment, as evidenced by a statement of commitment. During the warranty period, LOVE & CO. shall repair or replace the emotional state of holder if defected. If replaced, the replacement shall be with a product of equal or greater value. This warranty is valid for a period of (∞) years."

I want something that can never go wrong.

How?

How?

How?

Perhaps, what you want, it is not love.

Maybe, its is peace. It is peace and settlement and yes, perhaps love, but love for yourself. Love for your very own existence. How? Accept yourself. Let your character be one that you cherish. Let people in. Trust that they will stay. Trust that they too want to compensate, to compromise. Trust that they would genuinely allow their own shortcomings for your sake.

It is not a dog eat dog world.

Love is the risk. The allowance of oneself to fall, to let go, without a guarantee, without a concrete explanation or without a thought of why, or how. It is gambling everything at stake for the minuscule chance that that person might be betting on you too. It is trust. It is trust that there are no need for questions. "I love you, that's why."

I love you.

I love you.

I love you, so so much.

I love you more than a person can ever love someone.

How?

Learn to trust his words.

How?

Let him love you.